Four years today

It’s been four years today, and it still feels like first.  Migrating to a completely new place is not enough to keep me from remembering that on this day, four years ago, at 5 in the morning, my father passed without me by his side.

Four years ago, my brothers experienced the worst kind of sorrow and the highest level of despair, and I was not present to comfort them.

Four years ago, my mother had to witness the love of her life be torn away from her, quite instantaneously, without my arms around her.

Four years ago, I failed my family because I was too self-indulgent to be home for the weekend.

Four years ago.  Feels like first.

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Riding the Bus

Diary entry June 24, 2016

After months of waiting, this week, I was finally presented the opportunity to use the local bus by myself.  I’m pretty sure not a lot of people would share my enthusiasm, but I have used public transportation for as long as I can remember.  So this is a landmark for me.

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I walked to my stop 10 minutes early.  The bus arrived 10 minutes late; too many kids out from school made him drive slower and more cautiously than usual.  I dropped my exact fare at the machine; the driver gave me my receipt.  It was a pleasant afternoon.  If there’s no one waiting at the stop, the bus speeds along.  There were only a few passengers; the driver greeted each one as they boarded.

I know if I had just asked, I could have been driven to my destination and I would have traveled for 12 minutes instead of 30.  But this is what I want for the my country:  scheduled bus stops at designated locations, affordable fare, disciplined riders, clean and orderly busses with space for the handicapped.  I truly believe that efficient mass transit will lessen so much of our country’s burden.

In the meantime, I have to bear the thought that my mother still has to leave at 5i n the morning to catch a bus or a shuttle that will traverse the streets for almost (and sometimes over) two hours before getting her to a drop off point some five blocks from her office.  My mother is in her early 60s.

Oh, the injustice that someone half her age enjoys the convenience and the leisure that she should be enjoying now.

A new direction

So, it’s another new year for us all and there’s that recurring theme again:  new year, new me.  But the thing is, there’s really nothing new most of the time.  We try to create something new, be something new, but in the end, we can only be ourselves.  Perhaps the better theme would be new year, better me?

While I have often mentioned that I am taking a new direction in my writing, I have never really taken that seriously.  Until this year.  The past year reflected my most sparse writing year ever and well, it’s my first year of being a “new” me:  a wife.  In the past year, I have taken in all the changes that I can take, and it doesn’t seem to have an end to it, especially when I left my home in the tropics for a four-season living with the love of my life.

That will be the theme of this blog then — the random musings of an immigrant housewife.  As I traverse this new old world, I hope to entertain you with anecdotes, experiences, and learnings that I will absolutely strive to narrate better in this blog.

To those wondering if this is part of the new year, improved me theme for 2017, the answer is yes.  Hahaha.  I am beginning to think this is one of those rare things that I can actually follow through.

Here’s to another year of wild rides.  Cheers!

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