The red head got me all wrapped up again

I would like to explain my unintentional hiatus.  It is purely because of work.  Honestly.  I’ve been crammed with project after project, and mind you I’m not even done with the primary assignment to begin with.

Photography classes every Saturday tide me over, though.  I cannot wait to share my photos with you… if only I have the time to at least resize them.  Hahaha.

Anyway, I’ve been crushing hard on Ed Sheeran lately.  For those who know me well, they know my stance on having children.  But this song of his… well, it somehow makes me change my mind, at least for a good four minutes.

It really is the sweetest song.  I have never heard someone sing so honestly.

It’s not that I don’t love kids — you can ask anyone and they will tell you the same thing:  I am the perfect babysitter.  Babies and kids automatically love me and I barely try.  They are cute and cuddly and playful… and they’re not for me.  Hahaha.  I like the fact that I can return them to their parents when they start crying or pooping or do magical things with a Sharpie that is way beyond my control.

Some say I only feel this way because the time has not come for me yet.  They say, I just have to see the person I am meant to spend my life with and realize that there is nothing more I would want than to have a son grow up to become just like him.

And with that, I tell them this:

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Just saying. :)

To want and need the same things

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It is slightly annoying how these words seem to roll out of someone’s tongue so easily.

With people starting to explore other career options, I can’t help but wonder if I should be doing the same thing. After all, I’ve never really imagined myself working in a bank for life, no matter how noble the cause.

There are still days when I just sit by my table and stare blankly at my computer screen, wondering how the hell I ended up here. How the nuances of routine and constant nagging of constant things managed to bring me comfort so assuring that I cannot even recall what brought me here in the first place. How this is not the life I imagined for myself.

I guess that’s what death does to you: it forces you to evaluate everything, set everything in perspective, become pensive enough to see if the life you are living is really the life for you.

I used to say I can live off of pizza, beer and a good book.

Or a typewriter, sheets of paper and sunglasses.

Or wine, cigarettes, chocolates and Shakespeare.

Maybe I should start moving towards what I really want. More importantly, maybe I should start wanting more than what I need.

Oh well. It’s Ponder Thursday for me. How has your week been?

Be a traveler

Given the number of misfortunes I seem to be in constant contact with this year, I’ve long decided to start communing with nature and just pick myself up.  It has been a while since I last did that, so I’m quite scared and excited at the same time.

My first photography class will start on Monday!  Yay!  I signed up for Photoworld Manila’s Basic Photography Classes in AIM Makati.  I’m quite psyched.  I’ve been planning for so long to take these classes.  Now that I am armed with this baby, I don’t see why I should even delay these!

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I don’t know why I waited so long to make this purchase when I know for a fact I always have wanted this.

I now regret all the money spent on clothes and shoes that look the same.

What I’m mostly excited about is traveling.  I’ve already made some arrangements — solo and with a group — and I hope by the time I’m about to leave, I’m ready to take blog-worthy photos.

In the meantime, I have Instagram as my creative outlet.  My photoblog is running on empty.  I hope you’ll all be around still when I start snapping away again.

To end this post, I leave you with a takeaway from Laws of A Modern Woman (I like to pretend I abide by them):

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Have a great weekend everyone.  Don’t forget to mend your heart.