I have always loved the music of Mumford and Sons.

If presented to the unknowing person, they can easily be misunderstood. But it is the loss of that person to not immediately realize and feel the profundity of every word and lyric sang.

So tame my flesh and fix my eyes
A tethered mind freed from the lies

I came across this song at a time I needed it the most. Perhaps with my current situation, it is quite apt to be reminded of the depth of faith I should have in order to get through these negative emotions.

There are no harder demons to fight than the ones within you.

But I’ll kneel down; wait for now
I’ll kneel down; know my ground

I hope this song lifts you up too.

Be proud

May 27, 2013May 27, 2013 / iamsupercarla / Leave a comment

I have actually said this before in this post, but I believe something like this — a very good reminder of what you are meant for — can never be emphasized enough.

What I did today

May 26, 2013 / iamsupercarla / Leave a comment

A long time has passed since my last meaningful post in my own space so I figured, it’s about time for me to write again. And this time, I won’t get bored with myself halfway. Hahaha.

This week proved to be a horrid week. Let me count the ways.

My 1TB external hard drive started making clicking noises one afternoon and ultimately stopped functioning, successfully reformatting itself and obliterating 8-9 years of my everything — photos, music, videos, writings on the wall.
Number 1 happened approximately five (5) days after my other external hard drive, this time 500GB, also went kaput.
I was supposed to enroll for grad school this Thursday but everyone decided to book their meetings on that day. I delayed enrollment since Thursday is just Day 1. I went to school Friday, Day 2, and all the subjects I am allowed to take are full. School was supposed to be the highlight of my 2013.
Operations audit started this week and we’ve been in constant contact with Internal Audit for the documentation review. A lot of our processes are undergoing revision, but because #1 and #2 happened…. yeah, they’ll have to make do with the unrevised versions.
Emotional turmoil. To say the least.

To sum up, this week was…

But today, I decided to turn it all around. Today, this is what I did.

Called up a camera shop and reserved a Canon 600D to be picked up tonight
Signed up for evening refresher classes in photography somewhere in Makati
Enrolled in a couple more classes that will start in June and July at Coursera
Set aside a good amount for a July trip to nowhere
Started writing. Again.

This year has not really been a field of dreams for me, and the fact that I am missing this term… it’s almost a nail to the coffin of a godawful year. But a good friend — a very very very good friend — has constantly reminded me that everything happens for a reason.

And there will always be a way to turn it all around.

And that’s what I am doing now.

I hope, whoever is reading, you are having a great year. But just in case you are in the same rut as I am (and I am hoping your rut is not worse than mine), let’s turn it around together then.