We have experienced our first casualties: Karen and Rayrand were kicked off the Management Associates Program just before we began with our third module Related Learning Experience assignment. I can feel that this is just the beginning.

Karen said those who were in the red were called in an office and given a good talking to. I didn’t get that at all. So I am thinking that I am safe, after all. I can’t believe that I am though. Module 200 on banking and economics really made me feel how much I don’t belong in this place.

Every day, I can feel the decisions that I make molding me. I am with Patrick and Neil in the Commonwealth Branch for our RLE. Admittedly, they are fun to be with, but I can feel that if I hang out with them more, I just might sprout a penis. That would then be a disgrace in all aspects. I can’t even begin to explain how disgraceful it would be.

There are things that we do out of curiosity. I remember doing drugs out of curiosity, drinking and smoking too. I just hope that this kind of curiosity won’t come back and haunt me. Thank God I have good friends that keep me grounded.

I pray each night that I remain grounded. I wouldn’t want to float away.