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I am the epitome of messed up. I am with a man who obviously can no longer be with me, and yet I settly by hoping for him to change his mind. Kung bakit ba naman sa lahat ng taong pwedeng maging akin, yung may ayaw pa saken ang pinipiliko. Di naman siguro ako ganon kapanget o kabobo para din a maghanap pa ng iba. Dapat nga naghhahanap na ako e. kasi kung hindi siya magbabago, wala naman kaming patutunguhan.

Sa totoo lang, naduduwag ako. Ayoko kasing tumandang mag-isa kaya eto, natiya-tiyaha ako sa lalaking akala kong kayang magpabago ng buhay ko.

I can’t keep resting on something so fictional. Sa pelikula lang nagyayari yun. Why can’t I be like any other guy? Or girl for that matter. Yung date one, lose one, wala akong pakialam. Bakit ba kasi I have to be in a relationship to fully feel love? Love and all of its eccentric what not. Can’t I work on being complete without having to depend on anyone? Can’t I be complete by being alone? It’s always that fear of abandonment that keeps me tied in situations I shouldn’t be tied to in the first place.

Am I that difficult to please? Am I that high maintenance that I am only good for an office affair but not a marriage? Am I that different that I am no one’s ideal life partner? Am I that insufficient? Am I that lackluster?

You want to know the worst part? It’s the fact that in spite of all these things keeping me from getting a good night’s sleep, I still don’t want to know the answers.