Don’t you miss it all?

A part of me is glad that my partner Dylan is going to need his television set back.  After all, he does need the audio-visual entertainment more by the end of the day.  His job, staring at death in the eye every day, well, that has to cause some big weight around his shoulders.  The television can definitely give him more avenues to relax.  I will miss it though, that’s no lie.  But that leaves me more room to write.  The silence and the peace that will no longer be breached by the loudness of the television can definitely leave a whole lot more elbow room for my thoughts.  My wild, insipid thoughts.

Argue with me on this one.  With technology going faster than man’s comprehension and appreciation for things natural, is it possible for man to miss simplicity?  I look around and each time I would pass by a mobile phone shop, I would check out the latest price of that Blackberry.  I just pass by the newspaper stands and read the headlines and not bother to buy the paper, because I know I can read it off the Internet.  I make appointments via text and cancel appointments via text.  I’ve concluded meetings and meet-ups without really having to meet the person.  Some and I mean I have not experienced this yet, have started and ended relationships without physical contact.

Do you miss the time when you have to wake up at the sound of the rooster?  Okay that’s too provincial.  Do you miss the time when you are awakened by the sound of the magtataho?  You blot from your bed and run to your purse (or, if you’re nine, run to your parents) and frantically call out the vendor so he can stop in front of your house.  Do you miss the tallest glass in your dishwasher that you always use for the taho, even if it costs more than the plastic cup measurements of the vendor?

Do you miss the time when you don’t want to be late because you can’t be?  It’s not the same anymore.  I believe text messaging is the one to blame.  We have become more comfortable to be late or “not make it in time” because we can easily text and advice the other party that we’re “stuck in traffic” or “hit a bump in the road” (even though most of the time, those texts were sent right after you just got out of the shower).

Do you miss the time when you don’t have to pay for good coffee?  The morning household brew used to be enough to perk you up in the morning.  Now, you’d rather line up and pay for the world’s most complicated coffee:  venti mocha latte 2% with a splash of hazelnut syrup.  And even answer whether it’s to go or for here.

Don’t you miss late night phone calls?  When was the last time you used your home phone, apart from having something delivered?  Don’t you miss talking to your friends the entire day, at the same time, eagerly anticipating going home and getting a call from them to talk some more?

But I think I’m only saying these things because I’m supposed to.  At the time, I hated paying an extra P20 just to be updated with the news.  It was such a task to wake up early and make breakfast, and such a relief knowing you can go in a store and get it in five minutes.  I can talk faster, multitask better, and never be guilty for being late because I can now give an advanced notice.  I think I miss being simple because I’m supposed to.

We all want things to change, but once they do, we wonder why things can’t go back to the way they were.  It’s the age-old (or the new age) question:  are today’s innovations much more beneficial than yesterday’s discoveries?

I think I’ve had too little television.  Now, I’m off to YouTube.

Does the reward-punishment thing really work?

What I’ve always found interesting between me and Dylan is the fact that we seldom have the same opinion about something.  Some people actually view that as a bad thing, that  we don’t have much in common.  But it’s actually that difference that made us grow as better people, respecting each other in such a level that no one won’t be able to do.  At least not without years of practice. :)

One of the things we have constantly argued about (and I have come to agree with him on this one after some time) is the concept of reward-punishment.  This concept is often defined by psychologists as reinforcement.  You literally reward yourself (or others, usually kids) immediately after doing something good or accomplishing a task, in hopes of creating a pattern, making the accomplishments come quicker and sooner.  For a more detailed explanation on this concept (though I highly doubt that you’ll need one because my readers are not that dumb), just click here.

Well, my brother wasn’t able to graduate on time because of a thesis that he wasn’t able to pass.  So he had to take it up again this summer.  Thankfully, he finished it, passed it and now, is bugging my mother for his "reward" (which is an iPhone by the way).  

My side (at first):  I believe he deserves the reward.  He worked hard on his thesis, it was something that was very complicated, and I give him kudos for not giving up.  Albeit it took him 4 major revisions and 4 re-defense fora, it is a good thing that he was able to see through it all.

Then Dylan aired his:  Why are you going to reward someone for doing something he was really supposed to do?  He’s a child.  He’s privileged to receive education.  He’s obliged to finish that privilege the soonest possible time.  He didn’t.  So he tried again because he’s obliged.  Because he’s a student.  And a student stops being a student once he graduates.  And he did.  So why are you going to reward someone for accomplishing something he’s obliged to accomplish in the first place?

At first, I was quite upset.  He was saying that my brother didn’t deserve the phone.  But then, when you look at it from that point of view (as in not being related to my brother), he’s right.  People should only be rewarded for going the extra mile.  It’s like finishing a 10-year course in seven years.  Or even nine.  Rewards should come for doing something extraordinary when only the ordinary is expected.

But what do you think?


Me and my group mates after working on a credit application that wasn’t needed. Hahaha.

TriNoma and the free wifi

I’m supposed to abuse the power of plastic money by splurging in TriNoma’s green light sale when I suddenly felt warm.  At first I thought, hey it might just be me (it wouldn’t be the first time).  Since I started gaining weight, I’ve noticed my tolerance for humidity had lessened quite drastically, so I thought, I’m being maarte again.

Then, I saw people fanning.

Then, more people fanning.

Then… I couldn’t stop myself.  I asked.

Apparently, the entire mall is running on generators.

GET ME OUT OF HERE!  INIT! 

One random thought after another

I feel like there’s so many things wrong with me lately.  Cough.  Colds.  Period.  Dysmenorrhea.  Cramps.  Migraine.  Nose bleeds.  Not to mention that thing I have to take the same time everyday.  I wonder when I’d be better.

The more I look at things I want to have, the more I feel pain for the reminder that I am not that well-off.  Responsibilities and obligations suddenly spurted from one side to another, and I am having a lot of trouble catching up.  I wonder if the time will come when my other relatives wouldn’t have to rely on us to keep functioning.  It’s not that I don’t want to help; I do.  I absolutely do.  It’s just that sometimes, I make a much bigger sacrifice than what they originally had in mind.  Does appreciation come in a cup?  I sure hope so.

I will not fail this module.  Also, because I already flunked one and this is my last chance.  Everything about this module is so fucking boring.  My foot falls asleep every three minutes.  Thank God for Ranna and the pass notes thing.  At least, I am able to stay awake.  It kind of worries me though, whether I can study enough or know enough to get through to the next  round.  I better.

I swear on my perfect ovaries that I will enroll and finish a photography refresher course before the year ends… of course, after a purchase of my lovely camera.  And after learning how to drive.  I can’t let my friends drive me around anymore.  I’m becoming too dependent on convenience and air conditioning.

Commuting:  every one I am close to at work hates it.  For some reason, I missed it.  I’ve been people watching a lot lately.  I’m trying to come up with a good enough script for next year’s indie film festival.  I am running out of characters and profiles to feature and I can’t afford that.  I can’t afford to lose my creative touch.  Or maybe I have lost it and this is my attempt to recover it.  I aim to recover gracefully.

What’s up?!

So, Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov is a good read.  I better start reading more, especially the classics.  There’s something about old English and the fullness of every word that make me want to live in their time.  To be wooed by a thousand words of men that will journey halfway across the world to prove his worthiness of your heart.  Ah.  Beauty.  So, I stopped at page 14.  Can’t afford the romantic niceties.  I do need to review.

I wonder if my handouts are complete.  Better call Anj and check if we’re still on with Review Day binge.  I hope not.  Been running every other day in hopes of adding curves to my now-becoming-full body.  I like it a lot.  I aim to be as full as Monica Bellucci.  Now, to get those boobs…

I love my boobs just the way they are.  Just so we’re clear.

I do believe I will run out of tissue in about six hours.

Time is on my side. Or at least I think it is.

A lot has been going on lately and let me retrace some of the dates just so I myself will be reminded what went on.  Here’s to wishing I still remember them well. :))

May 8, 2010 — Saturday
Dylan and I went out and flirted excessively.  LOL.  I know it’s not really a good thing to be so PDA (I myself gag at the sight of smacking couples in the mall).  But the fact that Dylan is not a fan of kissing and holding hands while walking… and then he suddenly did all that and more… it’s quite a feel-good moment.  

So we kicked back and relaxed and watched Iron Man at TriNoma.  That is, after having healthy dinner at Kenny’s.  I’m quite enjoying the new Dylan, the one that took a long long long long long while before being seriously upset, the one who no longer snaps.  I hope this stage lasts.  Or at least never leaves. 

Oh yes. It’s just a weekly rundown. LOL.