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Productivity measure

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I don’t think everyone knows the complexity and the simplicity of the project I am assigned to do.  It’s almost funny because I am beginning to think that the only people who understands what I do are the people I work with.  One time, I tried to explain it to Dylan.  He just…. went in a daze.  Hahaha!  I can’t blame him though.  That happened to me too when I was first introduced to this project.  So yeah there.

Don’t you just hate the days when you just keep writing and writing and explaining, word after word, define, redefine, reprogram, collaborate, articulate, blah blah blah, the entire day?  I find those days commiting me to an almost irrevokable state of ennui.  Unfortunately, being a new project, it’s filled with these days.  So I always do my best to add some color – literally and figuratively – to whatever it is that I’m doing.

Today…. I managed to create a newsletter for our department.  For some reason, it felt so productive!   Hahahaha.  I think it’s mostly because I completely and utterly miss my roots.  I don’t remember the last time I’ve written something (except maybe for this blog) or even tried to fix a layout or come up with a mock up for approval.  So finishing all these in just a few hours is so empowering.

Hopefully, I haven’t lost my touch yet. 

I wish I can share the work I did here (because I am so effin’ proud of it, it’s nauseating), but the silence of office principle just straps me down.  (For those who can’t believe it, yes, I can keep secrets now.  I didn’t think I’d live long enough to see this day, but apparently, it’s otherwise.)  Anyway, something big is coming up and my butt is just so excited for the Bank. 

Now join me in prayer as I drift back to my documents of ennui.  Pray that I don’t run out of words.  Pray that I get to finish this today so I am still on track.

Kthxbye. :)

Care for Lunch?

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I had a seminar today sponsored by the World Bank at Discovery Suites in Ortigas.  It was one of the most informative seminars I’ve been to and I can’t wait for the go signal to talk about it.

Anyway, Discovery was nice, but the carpets looked frayed and old. Don’t even get me started with the bathroom.  The outside was pretty, all zen and shit, but the cubicles?  Very reminiscent of my high school bathroom, 4×7 in size, narrow and very un-suite-like.  Ugh.

Good thing the food made up for it.

This is the carrot cream soup.  It had a taste of ginger, semi-sweet, and a hint of spring onions and garlic.  It’s surprisingly really good, but it doesn’t look like it.  It could’ve used some presentation.  Honestly, it looked like kiddie barf.  Hahahaha.

L-R:  Homemade rolls, tuna and capers tossed in EVOO, broccoli and crabstick with light Japanese mayo, chilled seafood salad on mussel, fish in tausi sauce, lemon chicken, beef stroganoff

This is a very good serving.  I had a little bit of the ratatouille on the side and the zucchini was perfect — crunchy with a good kick of tomato.  For snacks, they had the corned beef crepe (I believe they made their own corned beef) topped with marinara sauce.  All.  Oh.   So.  Good.

It’s days like these that make me love my job. :)

Rooting for inspiration

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I told myself that today, I need to be inspired.  I wanted to be inspired because I have a lot riding on the next three months.  In three months, the program I have been working hard to stay in will be over.  Three months.  I’ve been here since August 2009, and in three months, I’m done.  I will be an officer and I will be assigned in a department where I can work my ass off without shame for the next 3 or 30 years.  Three months.  That’s all there is to it.  So I told myself, I need to be inspired.

Then, I started cleaning my room.  I’ve been renting a room here in Quezon City because it’s the closest place I can get and it’s one short ride to work.  I started cleaning and I found out, I have a pest.  I have a pest and it just made a corner of my room its home.  And today, I need to be inspired.  I need to tell myself that I am making this life better for me, where I am not dependent on anyone but myself.  My mad skills.  My rationale.  My intellect.  I need to be inspired just when I saw a corner of my rented space telling me that I am rotting away.

I am so tired.  I’ve been preserving everything.  From my family to my relationship with Dylan, everything hangs at a sensitive balance.  It’s so sensitive that I can’t have anything disrupt it.  But then again, there’s a pest in the corner of my rented room.  The cheap rented room, close to work, managed to gather more disgrace by harboring an unwanted neighbor.  Now, I have to call someone to get rid of the pest.  Another thick wad of money down the drain, another problem that needed solving, another thing that needed balancing.

There are days when I feel like I’m way in over my head, that I bit more than I can chew on this one.  I don’t think I’ve ever been this exhausted.  I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night and just want to throw up.  I eat a full meal and after reading about credit standards and delegated authorized credit limits, I just want to hurl.  I don’t know if there’s any space left for me, for my sanity.  I don’t know if there’s any space left period.

Three months left, and all the late nights, all the paperwork, all the missed birthdays, all the missed family trips, all the arguments, they’re all on me.  And I just feel like hurling, like throwing up, so I can make space.  Throw up so I can at least get a bit of elbow room.  Throw up so I can get to the phone and get someone to get rid of that neighboring pest.

Everything has to be balanced.  Just three months left.  I just have to have everything balanced in the next three months.  After that, they can all fly up in the air and be in perfect chaos again.

Cheap thrills in the morning

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Waking up early is not really a daunting task for me, but  it doesn’t necessarily translate to me not needing anything to perk me up.  I am a big advocate of breakfast and very much appreciate it being coupled with coffee.  But with a presentation to prepare for, I had to make a decision that would alter my morning:  to get cheap breakfast.

There’s always 7-Eleven for that. :)  I rushed over to my favorite convenience store and got myself a Jumbo Hotdog (P26) and 12 oz. of their AMAZING (and I mean AMAZING) French Vanilla Cappuccino (P45).  Yes.  P45.  And it can compete with Starbucks any freakin’ day.

Best with catsup, Manhattan dressing and Cheez Whiz

I heart Coffee this cheap and this good.

Here’s to a great morning ahead!

I feel my eyes drying up because of the heat and the cold

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I was supposed to update this thing a long time ago, but because of the endless assignments recently, you must forgive me for not being able to update more.

The good thing is I managed to find a way to cope with the stress at work:  I run.  Well, not exactly run.  More like, runjogwalkveryslowlythenwalkveryfast kind of exercise.  It’s not really a new thing; there really was a time when I did this thing religiously.  But I rediscovered my habit for smoking so it  took me a while to get back to running.  Of course, the expensive running shoes and core workout gear urged me to use my well spent money well, so here I am running.

I didn’t expect it to be that hard to get back though.  Each time I look in the mirror, I seem to appear wider than usual.  It’s quite disturbing actually, but what the heck.  I knew I was starting to be complacent and beginning to let myself go when I started becoming satisfied with unusual sizes — the one between medium and large — and never really fitting anywhere. So there.  I hope to get back on track before August.

Early this week, I started creating this worksheet that maps my savings and expenses.  I’m planning to open another savings account, just to make it harder for me to spend my money.  I’m hoping it would work.

On a totally different note, I know that Tiger has been posting!  And not letting us read it!  Grrr.  So unfair.  (Though I am not as diligent to write every day, I do make everything public.  But then again who am I to require disclosure from everyone who visits this page?)

So… there.  I have a pile of paperwork waiting for me and I just can’t wait to not attend to it.  Ha.  Yeah.  I’m lazy like that. :)