Everlong

This song never fails to get stuck in my head.  It is always haunting, each time I hear it.  It never stops chasing me.  Especially the Skin and Bones version.  I just love it.

And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything can ever feel this real forever 

Youth is wasted on the young

Sometimes, I feel sorry that we’re the Facebook generation.  Or that the younger ones prefer Twilight over Dickens.  Or that we spend too much time online and too little time among people.  That we have resorted to emails and forgot the romanticism of snail mails.  That we don’t care about librarians losing jobs, or museums having lesser and lesser visitors each year.

It’s been a really hard week here in the office.  I didn’t expect anything like this to happen before I even hit my first year here.  I seem to have floated with a heavy heart the entire time.  And the current events, as they unfold, slowly show me how important it is to be firm with your principles and values.  And that the heart can be weak, but do everything to not weaken the mind, to not break the spirit.  I didn’t expect anything to affect me this much.  Really.  But…. it really is affecting me far more than I ever imagined.

I hope next week is better.

Suspended in a sunbeam

Carl Sagan (d. 1996) was an American astronomer, cosmologist, author and one of those people who believed in the existence of extraterrestrial life.  To be honest, I have not heard nor read of him in any way or form, but I did see the movie Contact, which was based on the novel he wrote.  I loved Jodi Foster there, and the gap where she talked and travelled time was documented as a mere drop of a hat in human hours.

And then I saw a print from Pinterest and I looked him up.  Sagan led quite an interesting life; I think I was so drawn to his fascination for basically everything.

Plainly, the world held wonders of a kind I had never guessed. How could a tone become a picture and light become a noise?

I was transfixed by the dioramas — lifelike representations of animals and their habitats all over the world. Penguins on the dimly lit Antarctic ice; … a family of gorillas, the male beating his chest, … an American grizzly bear standing on his hind legs, ten or twelve feet tall, and staring me right in the eye.

I went to the librarian and asked for a book about stars … And the answer was stunning. It was that the Sun was a star but really close. The stars were suns, but so far away they were just little points of light … The scale of the universe suddenly opened up to me. It was a kind of religious experience. There was a magnificence to it, a grandeur, a scale which has never left me. Never ever left me.

I wonder now when I lost my curiosity for things.  How I stopped and when I stopped imagining and accepting the fact that some things are bigger than my hair, my weight gain, my shopping, my bills, and whatever shit I can come up with.  That the world revolves, with or without me, never around me.  And it is quite humbling to have stumbled upon something so grounded that the fine line between imagination and reality is a mere mark of a felt pen that easily rubs off in your attempts to see what’s under it.

Brilliant mind.  I’m quite sad I missed him.

Silly silver lining

It has been a pretty long while since I last featured Chictiopians here in my blog, and to be honest, I really like them.  I don’t know, maybe because their style is so practical and most of it, I can actually pull off without having to expand my closet too much.

Plus there are those recession queens that just find the most adorable pieces.  I wish I can go to more ukay/vintage/thrift shopping.  I think when I’ve trimmed down my paperwork by half, I can finally make way for those trips.  Besides, my friend Ranna loves thrift shopping too.

No specific theme for today.  I just browsed the gallery and made a mental note that I should be able to wear something like this in the near future.  A girl can dream right?

For one, I love her red curly hair.  It pains me most of the time, that I cannot make such drastic changes to fit my weird likings.  It’s almost unfortunate because these curls look so natural; impossible to achieve in a salon or in front of a mirror at home.  And that bow just made me fall for this look so much!  And that bag — ah.  I love the entire look — vintage and romantic.  Find more of Aminta’s stuff here. Continue reading